i hope there won't be o lot of days as bad as today in the near future...

firstly, my laptop broke. i don't know what happened, but suddenly it restarted and didn't want to start the system...

and should i mention that i was in the middle of nowhere, the place where mobile phones don't work, the village in which i don't really want to be, but i sort of have to ?

Later - as it turned - i realizesd it was that moment of month which every wommen have, and when i usually feel like shit or even worse... so i was dying from pain during the whole day (exaggerating a bit, but whatever)

moreover - nobody remembered about me really, only my parents and grandma wished me happy birthday. but i guess i shouldn't have woken up a bit earlier than every day. Because my sisters and brother phoned. And 2 of my friends messaged me, but i wasn't expecting it from this ones, so it was really nice^^ And my best friend phoned, so the day was saved xD"

But not for long, because then my sister showed up in our summer house. And when her 3-year-old daughter is near, my parents just... just turn crazy about her. And we were just preparing to go back to our house in the city - but no, because of them some hurs later we just started to pack things.

At this time I cried few times
(i'm the type of person who when starts to cry, will surely cry some more that day...)

And then there was my way home. I was driving, and my father told me to take the way through some fields, at night, without even the light from moon, because it was rainigh so much.

But that couldn't be enough, oh no.
Some weeks ago i've lost my bag, with the keys in it - the keys to our home, etc, and our only spare key to the car. My parents were furious. About the spare key.
And today i was in such a foul mood, that i did what they predicted. I closed every one of the doors, taken every little thing from the car, and got out. And of course the key remained inside. With lights on, and oh mz god the accumulator...

My dad broke in, in some way, and everzthing is fine now, bu God, please, no more days like today. Mz eyes hurt from crying,I'm really mad at myself for all of this, so i'm going to sleep. i've just installed the system in my notebook, so i can finally listen to some music, what a relief


i'm old, i'm reckless, i'm not listenning to my parents and nobady remembers about me.
so, sorry for this shitty note, just don't read it please

oh, and it's in english - because i'm going to study english at UW. a dokladnie - uczyc sie nauczac, ale whatever